California Living and Shit

So it's been a while since I've blogged and a lot has happened since my "This is for my 20 somethings" blog post. For starters I moved to Los Angeles, California. Yep, I finally did it. And it has been one hell of a ride. It's only been 3 months and although I'm not as in love with LA as I thought I'd be I'm happy I decided to move.

August 22, 2016 I began my journey across the country. Eyes full of fear, anxiety, regret, confusion and tears I waved goodbye to some of my favorite people in the world. And as I boarded my plane and began to fasten my seat belt the thoughts of failure and the feelings of anxiety took a seat right in the pit of my stomach. I have never been so overwhelmed with emotions ever before in my life. I was so fucking scared. I hated myself for buying that ticket. I kept asking myself "why did you buy a  ticket?". I mean who does that?! Who moves to LA alone at 23?! A crazy person.

My emotional meltdown at the airport

INFATUATED

The world will have you believe that your number one priority should be a man. Love. Oh good ole fashion girl meets boy love. The word will have you believe that a man's love is the only thing you should ask for as a woman. The only thing you're worthy of. And should you ask for a successful career, financial security, happiness outside of any of you personal relationships, God bless your innocent, ambitious, and precious mind. May God bless you with armor strong enough to protect you  as you journey through a life of hallow point insults.

How dare you be the exact shape and size of a man's fantasy and tell him no.

How dare you be smart as hell and still walk, talk, laugh, smile, and look like sex. 

How dare you be sexy.

How dare you stand in your power. Demand your equal share of respect while believing in Chivalry. 

How dare you be a woman. 

How dare you create your own kingdom and rule as Queen. 

How dare you be more

This Is For My 20 Somethings

Over the past few years I've learned so many life changing lessons. Some hard and some from observing the mistakes of others. Each lesson has further my transition from child to adult. From girl to woman. Everything in my life from friends, relationships, jobs, and finances to spirituality, common sense, happiness, and peace, has been tested and re-adjusted to compliment my adult life.

To say that letting go of my childish standards, behaviors, and beliefs has been challenging is an understatement. Growing up fucking sucks. You literally have no idea what you're doing. You just do it and hope that somewhere along the line while you're super sonic-ing through life, you hit a few rings. However, sometimes you get lucky enough to cross paths with someone who's been exactly where you are and can offer you some wisdom, encouragement, and/or reassurance. Although I haven't been adulting for long I decided to share whatever wisdom I have.

So this is for my 20 somethings cause time really moves fast we were just sixteen.

1. Friendships.
99.9% of them have expiration dates. The idea that our childhood friends will grow old with us and become equally successful and will forever share our beliefs, morals, and values is the greatest fairy tale to ever exist.

The Truth About My Love Life at 22

The The Truth about my love life is that it is complex, electrifying, beautiful, humors, precious, unrequited,  tender, and everlasting. It is composed of endless butterflies and sudden heartbreak. It is nothing like I'd thought it'd be but everything that I needed. Since love is the topic this month I've decided to share my experiences with you all in 3 parts. Enjoy.

For part click here for part 1 and here for part 2


I met him when I went off to my 4 year school. We were acquaintance for about a year before we started dating. He was literally everything I though I wanted from a man. He fit my physical preference, he was doing well for himself in school, he was mature, and he treated me like a princess. But something still didn't feel right.

The Truth About My Love Life at 21

The The Truth about my love life is that it is complex, electrifying, beautiful, humors, precious, unrequited,  tender, and everlasting. It is composed of endless butterflies and sudden heartbreak. It is nothing like I'd thought it'd be but everything that I needed. Since love is the topic this month I've decided to share my experiences with you all in 3 parts. Enjoy.


 Click here for part 1. 

The second person that I loved might as well be the first and only person because my love for him is the strongest and the purest.

I met homeboy when I was about 17 through friends. He had a girlfriend and I had no plans on ever being involved with him. Never thought twice about it. Fast forward to 19 and still friends on Facebook, one day we made plans to hang out